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27 February 2010

Weight: Lost so far: Still to go: Diet followed:
90.4 kg 0 kg 17.9 kg 100%
   Add Comment Losing 2.5 kg a Week

26 February 2010

Went to Los Amigos (our favorite Mexican) for supper tonight. I amazed myself. I DID NOT eat the first chip, salsa or cheese dip!!! Yay me!!! I'm so proud of myself for not doing it! My husband and I ordered a single order of fajitas and I picked out some chicken, peppers and a few onions and then topped that with sour cream. It was so good! I didn't even really miss my usual margarita - the last time I had one I had a "dumping" spell and got sick. I'm pretty proud of myself right now because Aunt Flo came calling today and I'm usually wanting to eat some kind of chocolate and nuts but I chose to eat an Atkins bar instead. I ate it with a cup of coffee and it tasted fine. Don't you just love the cardboard taste??? lol

Anyway, I have been extremely stressed past week with my son and his grades. He's in the 6th grade and takes the advanced classes. I am constantly on him about studying and making good grades because my parents never really encouraged me to do that kind of stuff. It was all about sports (softball) at my house. He made his first "B" this past 6 weeks - the first one he's made in 3 years and I freaked about it. What's bad is that it's an 89. Not like it's a low "B" or something!!!! So after I go off on him about it last Saturday I have a small anxiety attack. Chest tightness, my last two fingers on my right hand going numb, you know - the usual stuff! It hasn't happened in a while and then I always start to think I'm having a heart attack or something and that makes it worse!! So, I've scheduled another appointment with my cardiologist (haven't seen him in 9 years for the same stuff) just to check on it and make sure since I do have heart problems on both sides of my family. Then I end up having to take the kid to the doctor on Tuesday for a sinus/cold crap. I talk to him about my things going on like I always do (he's sent me to therapy, had me on Lexapro at one time) and he finally says, "Shanon, would you mind taking a teeny tiny pill whenever you feel this feeling coming over?" I told him that I didn't want to become dependent on anything and he said that I would only take it whenever I felt the anxiety come on. So now I have some Xanax!!! I took one at 10 til 12 on Tuesday morning and woke up at 5 til 6!!! Wow~!!! My husband said he checked on me several times to see if I was breathing I was so out of it (asleep). So I have now taken one for the last three nights and do you believe that two of my co-workers today actually said that I was acting alot more like a real person first thing in the morning for the last two days! (I'm normally someone that doesn't talk until at least a pot of coffee has gone into my blood stream!! lol!!! So I guess this med is doing what it's supposed to. I do know that it is HIGHLY addictive so I won't be taking it all the time. I even had Aunt Flo happen today and I've not been my normal bitchy self!! Imagine that! lol!!

Boy I love having this journal to put things down in. It makes me feel so much better to get this off my chest!!!! Yay me!!!

26 February 2010

Weight: Lost so far: Still to go: Diet followed:
90.8 kg 0 kg 18.2 kg 100%
   Add Comment steady weight

23 February 2010

Well, I have found out over the last week that my pouch is actually doing what it's supposed to do, again. I find that I cannot eat a whole lot at each meal and it makes me feel good. Last night we went to Red Lobster to celebrate my nieces 18th birthday and I ordered the grilled shrimp, lobster and scallop dinner. The lobster tails are VERY small and I was ony able to eat one of the sliced sides - leaving the other three. I ate 3 grilled shrimp and one scallop and was absolutely full!! I had ordered the steamed broccoli as my side and was not able to touch it at all. I did eat half of the garlic biscuit - bad bad girl!!! Since starting this Atkins diet ( partly anyway) my blood sugar has not dropped once! I had found that before starting this that my sugar was dropping at almost anything I ate. My son and I were coming out of the movies Sunday week and I had a tablespoon of rainbow nerds. By the time it took me to drive the 15 minute drive home my sugar had dropped to 50! But like I said, since starting incorporating more protein and less carbs, nothing like that has happened. I can honestly say that I have actually looked at things and just nope, it's not worth it. I made strawberry cream cake balls for my nieces birthday and tried just a smidgen of it before I could serve it to anyone else. They tasted SUPER, but not good enough for me to break my lower carb committment. I have not stuck with the induction phase of the diet but I intend to start on Wednesday. Like I said before, I did not have my guts rerouted (gastric bypass surgery) to gain the weight back!!! Wish me luck everyone!!! If there are any of you out there that would like to read my journal daily and help keep me accountable, then by all means do it! I'm not the kind of person that keeps her feelings on her shoulders. I'm the type that will pull up her big girl panties and get on with it!!!

20 February 2010

Weight: Lost so far: Still to go: Diet followed:
90.8 kg 0 kg 18.2 kg Reasonably Well
   Add Comment Losing 1.3 kg a Week


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