ChallengeMember's Journal, 11 Feb 10

Well, I just don't even know what to say--things have been very challenging for me this week...every day. I haven't done horribly but definitely not within my points. I had reached my point limit today at 2:30 in the afternoon. Normally I would keep writing down everything even though I went over but I don't even know what I ate at this point--I sort of gave up...for TODAY. Not tomorrow. Tomorrow will be a new day. I envision the next three days being harder than most as I'll be going on a mini vacation with friends and in our world, vacation = eating. I'm going to be aware though--I'm going to eat reasonably. I won't have my computer to log my food but I'll log it on paper somewhere and just do the best that I can. It won't be perfect but here's what I know and what I have to remind myself: no matter how "badly" I feel like I'm doing right now, I have to be eating far less calories than I was prior to joining FS and I'm eating more nutritiously, too so there are still some positives even though I might be going over my points. And what I always have to tell myself is that as long as I don't give up on this, I'm still "winning"...and I am NOT giving up.

Update: I made myself remember and go back in to the food journal and record my food. I realized that saying I couldn't remember was just a terrible excuse for not having to face the facts. There--I did it.

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2139 kcal

Fat: 79.72g | Prot: 82.78g | Carbs: 256.13g.   Breakfast: sausage, tortilla, egg, starbucks caramel machiato. Lunch: chicken teriyaki. Dinner: shrimp. Snacks/Other: Peanut Butter Cookie, subway cookie, egg roll, Miscellaneous Samples, hersheys hugs, nabisco chocolate covered pretzels, banana. more...

3267 kcal

Exercise: Standing - 2 hours, Sitting - 2 hours, Desk Work - 3 hours, Resting - 9 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...