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been feeling so crappy the last couple of days....headaches, tired legs, just general feeling down, nausea, sore ears, in other words just full of crap....I can only put it down to getting a bit sick...maybe flu or something...hate feeling like this and tired man, tired....want to sleep all the time.
I took some photos of myself in the buff the other day and OMGREATNESS I WAS HORRIFIED. Now I am not naive to think that there would not be any rolls and bumps on the bod but my goodness, the roads in south africa have nothing on this body with all the bumps, hills, dales, folds etc....it is truly hideous and UGLY and it has made me so sad to see that I have allowed myself to get this way...wonder why it took so long to take this picts, I mean every day one looks at the mirror but I was not seeing what I saw on the photographs....man oh man.....am I in for a long haul to victory...but I need to get there and soon.
I am most afraid of dying and being so overweight....its hard work to keep motivated and happy when one has this overbearing weight problem. And people listen, I do need to just get this off my chest so to speak so dont go telling me that its common knowledge, I know this, but writing it down and saying it out loud does wonders....
so its work work work and getting myself happier and thinner day by day. I can do this....
Blessings in abundance
me. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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