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I started this diet to lose weight because I did not realize how I had let myself go. I am returning to the workplace in an "office setting" rather than being able to wear scrubs all day every day. My mother took me clothes shopping to buy new work clothes for my birthday the other day. We searched and searched and could not find pants in my size. I tried on some 12s and would have needed 3 rubberbands to make them fit! When I put them back my mother suggested we look "over there". "Over There" was referring to the "Just My Size" or plus size section. I about died! My size was there!
I have never been truly thin. I have always had curves but was always fit due to an active life style. When I got married I let myself go a little being in a new town with no one I knew other than my husband. When I did make friends no one was "fit" or into working out. By the time I met someone who was I was 7 months pregnant and did not care. I did yoga throughout my pregnancy to help with leg and pelvis issues I was having.
After my daughter was born I just did not work out. I was always tired and did not really care how I looked. I accepted the fact that I was a "mom" and this is how moms look.
After a few years I had gained 30 pounds. I was frustrated with my image. I would look at other moms my age and wish I could look like them. Or I would see heavy set teens and college girls wearing what I wanted to wear but did not have the confidence to. My biggest disgust was with my legs. Even though I'm short I had always had slim, muscular legs. I hated wearing skirts and often dressed much older than I am to hide my shape.
Last year I finally came to the conclusion that I can dress anyway I want. I am comfortable with my body. Now that I am comfortable I feel I can succeed at a diet. Usually when I would crash in the past it was because I was disgusted with myself and hated the fact that diet and exercise took so long to lose the weight. I saw in my mind where I wanted to be and if I did not get there in a month I would just stop and eat my way into another dress size.
I am now 47 pounds heavier than when I married my husband 4 years ago. I know where I want to be but I will do it on my own time. I am comfortable with myself now and will be when I am finished. No rush, no hurry, and no getting off course. Just success.
View Diet Calendar, 16 October 2009:
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1086 kcal
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Fat: 49.16g | Prot: 95.80g | Carbs: 61.92g.
Breakfast: whole milk, Quaker Oatmeal. Lunch: fully%2bloaded%2bdouble%2bstuffed%2bpotatoe%2bsoup. Dinner: celery, boiled egg, tuna. more...
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2643 kcal
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Exercise:
Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 15 minutes, Basketball - 30 minutes, Shopping - 1 hour, Desk Work - 4 hours, Housework - 2 hours, Sleeping - 13 hours and 15 minutes, Resting - 3 hours. more...
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