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I have ‘issues’ when it comes to food.
My issues being from family members I live with telling me to get out of the kitchen without any context to why I’m there.
I’ve politely told them, it doesn’t help! To trust I’m on my eating plan and I’m eating accordingly.
This stems back to when I dated a guy for eleven years with a overbearing mother. I weighed 200 when I had met him. I had goals of getting to 165. I was healthy, young and vibrant. She told Me I was too fat to be seen in their neighborhood. What would the neighbors think?
I started covering up with a long jacket when I was outside over at their house. She constantly berated my size, measured my tiny portions of whatever she cooked for that meal. He didn’t have my back my ex at the time. He soon started to lecture me about concerns regarding my health.
I would go home and binge and eat large amounts of food. Whatever ‘help’ she was giving me. It was back firing. In the eleven years with him I put on one hundred extra pounds.
I’m not blaming her for my weight gain. I’m blaming her for making me feel less of a person because I was overweight. I blame myself for letting it impact my actions.
Today I cringe when I open the refrigerator door. My mom shouts out “ grab an apple”.
View Diet Calendar, 13 January 2024:
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1397 kcal
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Fat: 55.52g | Prot: 81.74g | Carbs: 152.50g.
Breakfast: Bananas , Simply Bar Protein Bar. Lunch: Ranch Salad Dressing , Lettuce, Cheese Pizza. Dinner: Scrambled Egg . Snacks/Other: Daisy 4% Small Curd Cottage Cheese, Pickles, Chobani Greek Yogurt Blueberry on The Bottom , Air Popped Popcorn. more...
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