Cindy Thompson's Journal, 16 May 11

Cindy - We all want you to take care of yourself and get better soon. Friendship is a 2-way street.  

Thanks BuffyBear.  

Cindy - You are too a good friend right now! Thank you for letting us know this. I have been worried about you. And I am just so thankful and grateful that you have been able to be redirected back to what will help you. So what that you have to take them regularly. There is no judgement, or stigma associated with helping yourself to be the best person you can be!!! There is no shame, or guilt or any of the 'baggage' you might be thinking attached to any of our friendships with you! WE LOVE YOU! And I am so happy you are well. How are your eyes doing??? Your husband, Cliff? Your daughter, SIL, and the grandbabies??? Can't wait to catch up soon. All My Love!!! Paula 

Cindy, you are a wonderful friend and we all have our moments of not being around. Never feel bad, I am glad you are being honest. As Paula said there is no judgement, or stigma from this corner, I was fortunate enough to be able to come off my medications but you never know what the future will hold. Take care of you and know I'm thinking about you! 

Cindy - This is the no judgement zone, a great place to pour your heart out. Praying for your continued health improvement. Can't wait for you to catch up with us and us with you. Stay safe friend!  

Thank you Paula and Pixi. There are alot of people who look down on people who are on antidepressants. Thanks for not judging me. All I want is to get back to what is normal for me. My eyes are getting better. Cliff is the best man in the world. I am so blessed to have him as my husband. My daughter and I are not speaking. She does not understand what bipolar is and thinks poorly of me for being hospitalized. I haven't gotten to see or speak to my grandaughter Olivia. My other grandaughter lives in New Hampshire and is to little to get on the phone. On a brighter note...Saturday I got a new dog. His name is Chico. He is a chihuahua/terrier mix. He stays by my side all day and sleeps with Cliff and I. He hasn't had any accidents in the house either. I'll have to get a picture for ya'll. 

Thank you Babs for your friendship and prayers too. Love and Hugs 

Cindy, I also take an antidepressant. I will not go off it- ever. They say I have a lower happiness level than normal. I have a chemical imbalance. I feel so much better on Zoloft. Don't think it's not okay to take a medicine every day, if they help please take them. 

Thank you Ruby. I've been told that if I had diabetes I wouldn't feel guilty or shame if I took insulin so why feel shame for trying to balance out chemically in the brain. I guess society doesn't look at it the same. All I know is that I made a big mistake going off of the meds and won't ever do that again.  

Cindy, my sweet,dear sister Cindy....I am so sorry that you had to go through that. Of course we don't think badly of you....you have a medical condition that requires medicine, and that is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. As for your daughter, she will come around. There is no reason for her to be mad at you...you didn't do anything wrong. Could her husband be influencing her? Regardless, just take your meds and know that you are doing the right thing for you! Congrats on the new four legged baby. Enjoy little Chico. I am glad your eyes are doing better, and I hope that you feel abit better about taking a break from FS....it was what you needed to do, and we all understand! Lots of love and big hugs for you, sis! :) 

Pics of the puppy please. As for being bipolar, I have a cousin and an aunt that suffer from it so I totally get your struggle. Hat being said, it is sometimes hard for people to understand, I hope your daughter comes around and that she gets educated about this disease as it makes understanding easier. You should never be ashamed about taking antidepressants, so many people are on them now there shouldn't be any stigma behind them. If you ever need to talk or vent or anything I am just a PM away. 

Thank you Stef my sister. All of you are so kind. You don't know how much it means to me to have all of you as friends. I have felt isolated and ashamed but now I know that ya'll are here. I'm just sorry that I didn't tell ya'll sooner. It wasn't easy to admit my responsibility of going off my meds. Hopefully this chemical imbalance will get balanced out soon. Lots of Love. 

Cindy, I'm so sorry you've had to go through this episode. You're certainly not alone in thinking that you could do as well without the meds....my BIL did something similar. Thankfully, there ARE meds to work on those chemical imbalances. Go easy on yourself as you progress through these next several weeks. I'm sure your daughter will come around in time. Hugs.... 

Cindy - I applaud your bravery for your putting yourself out there with this journal entry. Do what you need for yourself and your health. We're here to support each other without judgment. You come first in your life - be your best friend. 

Cindy, its all been said above, just glad to have you back, I've missed you. No judgements from me either, been there, bought the T-shirt, so to speak!  

Thank you Sandy, Claire, and Isabelle. I really appreciate all of your support. Love and Hugs to All. 

Cindy sorry to hear about all that. Sure hope you get to feeling better soon. Hang in there and keep up the great work on the weight losses.:) 

Hi Cindy, my sweet smiling friend. I have so missed you on here. If the meds help you feel better then you need to take them honey. So sorry you had to go to the hospital. Take care. Sending Lots of Love and Hugs..........Bren 

Thank you Laurie and Bren. Love and Hugs. 

Morning Cindy, your doing great and I am sooooo proud of you.. Get well so you can have a cup of coffee with me in the mornings.. Love ya Bren