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The hardest part of dieting so far is eating every three hours. I know why I'm supposed to do this, but the how is hard with appointments. I need to strategize to come up with a way to have my snacks/food on the road with me and keep them cold.
I was out early today so did not have the opportunity to weigh myself. I'm hoping tomorrow to be in a new "decade" - the 150s.
I will have a bit of a challege on Saturday when we are going to a clambake. I won't be eating the clams but will have chicken instead but the corn, potatoes, pie and wine plus the smores at the beach bonfire will be off limits. ;o(
RANDOM MUSING: I wonder how many pounds I will have to lose before my husband gives me a sincere compliment? 15? 20? 30? I've lost 5.5 so far - when you have 50 to lose, that's a drop in the bucket. The last time he told me I "looked nice" was in March. It was a week after we'd had a fight, during which I told him how I notice how he never compliments me anymore. He acknowledged the truth of it. A week later when we were going to church, he told me I looked nice. It wasn't sincere, but he was trying. Since then, he hasn't said a word.
We are not going to a black tie dinner in Oct. because I don't want to buy a size 14 (or bigger?) dress. I was crushed last year when I thought I looked beautiful and when he saw me he calmly said, "You look nice." It was like a punch in the gut. NICE? I had on a long black dress with a black feather boa and he says I look NICE? It crushed me. At the dinner, several men made over me and I let them know, right in front of him, that they had more of a reaction than he had. Of course, I'm heavier a year later which is why we are not going (not that he knows that).
Next year I want to go to that dinner in the same dress but altered to hug my new thin, beautiful body. I will get a spray tan and plop my blonde tresses up on top of my head like a playboy bunny. Let him tell me I look NICE then!
P.S. I definately notice my wedding ring slipping off and on my finger more easily. I know it's just water weight, but it's nice not to have sausage finger anymore. ;o)
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