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Ouch! What a hard bike ride today! I knew flying down all those gradual slopes, we'd be paying for it on the way back, but it was easy to forget while having so much fun racing down the hills. 7 miles of downhill fun, then 7 miles of uphill hell. But all the time that I was sweating, and barely moving past a walker's pace, as I SLOWLY passed many elderly people walking the trail, (we rode right near a retiremement home) I thought..."just don't stop, keep pedaling". DH, had to finally get off of his bike and walk because his bike was stuck in second gear, so he walked and I pedaled--- same pace. LOL.
We then went to the movies, and I did have a small package of M&M's, but that is instead of my nightly vice tonight, and so it's not all bad.
However, I am very sore now, and if I am sore today, I dread tomorrow.
It will be a busy work day and so I hope I won't be too stiff.
I'll try and pop some advil, soak in the tub and get a good night sleep.
All and all today was a good day-- though a minor stressful family event happened this morning(nothing serious to do with mom's Alzheimers or dad's memory or health issues, thank goodness-- just about other dumb stuff regarding the care providers that help, minor, but it can still take its toll when it's ongoing) My brother and I were able to support each other, and once again, I was able to move on after about 20 minutes of complaining and getting it out of my system. (and my brother was able to lean on me too)
This whole thing of learning to feel and then deal makes it easier to move on from it, which helps very much with my eating habits. My prior habit of shoving pain down, being silent and letting things eat at me, only made pain linger at a lower quieter level...like having a painful ache because I wouldn't deal with it right off, and I'd reach for food to soothe.
Now I face it better, I may feel harsher anger, frustation or hurt right off, but it leaves much quicker. 20 minutes of sharp hurt is better than 20 days of ache buried deep inside. And that goes for small stuff too as I am finding that if I am overly emotional about the "smaller" stuff, it means that either I have let a bunch of small stuff build up, or I am still dealing with larger painful or irritating stuff. So, now I deal with it, small or large.
I also realize that some pain won't take just 20 minutes. I may feel bad and be in a funk for a couple of days. As long as I just let the people I care about know it's me, not them, and if they just allow me to be in my funk, I'll come out of it. This allows me to feel it and eventually move on from it. Much better than putting on a happy face for everyone else's sake (which can feel even more painful and prolong the funk--- So, sometimes you just have to say "Respect the Funk, People!")
Anyone who has had to deal with family health issues like Alzheimers, strokes, dementia or terminal cancer in someone you love, you know that things may not get better, you just have to try and find the good in the moment. Stay a bit more present, not borrow tomorrow's troubles, but vent out when you need to.
I'm happy that I am FINALLY learning a healthier way to deal with life in general (though I know I am still learning!), but ironically it's during the bad times that is getting me in the habit of doing "good" things for myself. Go figure.
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1779 kcal
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Fat: 44.60g | Prot: 90.97g | Carbs: 257.70g.
Breakfast: Bananas, Sesame Bagel, Cream Cheese, Fat Free Strawberry Yogurt. Lunch: chocolate banana bar, Peaches. Dinner: Spinach Salad, Classic Balsamic Vinaigrette, Organic Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast, Organic Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast, Premium Cut Green & Wax Beans, Corn On The Cob with Butter. Snacks/Other: Original Potato Chips, Slow Churned Rich & Creamy Light Rocky Road Ice Cream. more...
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3413 kcal
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Exercise:
Desk Work - 6 hours, Housework - 2 hours, Bicycling (leisurely) - <16/kph - 1 hour, Circuit Training - 20 minutes, Resting - 6 hours and 40 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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