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I am going to weigh in tomorrow regardless of whether or not I like what the scale has to say. I haven't weighed in thus far because I kept hoping my weight gain was related to TOM or temporary vacation gain BUT I have a feeling it's not really either of those at this point. Bummer. So I will have to record the weight and face the music so I can continue to progress.
I am a teacher and I thought, "Summer will be great...I will have more time so I can really focus on my health and weight loss." Somehow, I have found it way harder to stay focused because I am out of my routine. I don't know how any of you stay-at-home-moms do it! I feel like I eat so much more or WANT to eat so much more at least because it's just there. Again I'm sure it has something to do with routine...so far this summer, I haven't established a real routine. Every day is different. It is really good to journal because I didn't even realize what I was lacking until I wrote that last sentence...I am lacking routine. I guess I better get one fast.
The weight gain is still within ten pounds (again, I'll see the official stats tomorrow) but it makes me really nervous. I got rid of my clothes and I'm not getting them back and I'm not buying clothes that are bigger than I am wearing now. I refuse. I'm not giving up. In fact, when I complained to a friend about the summer being harder, she asked, "So are you just going to take the summer off?" "NO WAY," I responded..."Absolutely not." I can't. The old me would have but I know you can't take a lifestyle change "off".
I'm just struggling. Letting old foods re-enter the scene in unhealthy amounts. Not keeping the balance I had before. And most importantly not counting calories on FS. I am smart enough to know that if I would just start tracking again, I'd BE on track. So why is it so hard to be honest with myself? Because it's easier not to be? Maybe. I don't have an answer to that one.
Going to record today's food. Let's see how I did. I will say, in advance, that I had taken everything out to make a PB&J and then thought about it and put the bread back in the bag and put away the jelly and decided to cut an apple and eat it with a little peanut butter. I'm glad the angel on my shoulder is still doing her job. :)
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1596 kcal
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Fat: 64.77g | Prot: 70.39g | Carbs: 191.31g.
Breakfast: Chocolate Frosted Donettes, sugar, half and half. Lunch: lorna doone, spaghetti. Dinner: corn chowder, red pepper, zucchini, halibut. Snacks/Other: strawberries, mcdonalds vanilla cone, Creamy Salted Peanut Butter, apple. more...
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