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Why is eating becoming such a challenge?
Sleep is a challenge for me and always has been since my diagnosis with MS, and the pain that I struggle with each day. Not to mention the stress that accompanies it. But along with the isolation as well. Moving here to Alabama and missing my friends from Chicago didn't help matters much. But I literally lost my identity along with the move as well. Now it's like I can't seem to be able to find a way to get out of the depressive "funk" that's come over me. I lost my gym, and that was a HUGE part of my identity!!! Coming here and having no one and no way whatsoever to get around is really starting to take a toll physically as well as mentally.
I KNOW how much food is essential for my muscle and nerve health. But sadly, I just can't seem to shake myself out of this.
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51.3 kg
Lost so far: 3.9 kg.
Still to go: 0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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View Diet Calendar, 06 October 2017:
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740 kcal
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Fat: 18.83g | Prot: 14.10g | Carbs: 134.07g.
Breakfast: Nabisco Belvita Blueberry Breakfast Biscuits, Activia Strawberry Yogurt, Bananas. Snacks/Other: Publix Jumbo Honey Bran Muffins. more...
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Losing 1.1 kg a Week
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I hope you can find a new gym and training buddies. I know it will take some time for it to feel like "home" .. I've been there (well .. minus the competitions). I know this may seem like a strange suggestion, but on the mind-body connection thing (which I believe in), I sometimes find it helpful to mentally recite a list of "I am xxx", and "I will xxx", when I am relaxing or before sleep. Good Luck! Begone Funk!!!
07 Oct 17 by member: rhills
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Thank you @rhills - I actually DID eat these last two days (not that I had much choice in the matter!) But since hurricane Nate decided to pass through the area, my personal assistant decided that she was going to stay with me for the weekend in case of emergency. So..... she pre-ordered food and brought it along with her and basically it was a case of: "Eat or ELSE!" 😆
It made me feel better and we had a good time. (She is the only person here that can make me feel better and laugh.)
I have tried the mind over matter that you have stated, because I still am able to do some yoga in my wheelchair. Meditation is sometimes the ONLY way that I'm able to sleep some nights anymore. But sadly, the "funk" still lingers.
People here are SO judgmental! Especially when they see a smaller person who's in a wheelchair (who's in shape and has as many tattoos as I have.) I have actually heard them say: "She must've been a drunk or drug addict and that's why she's now in that wheelchair!" 😳🙄
Never even giving the chance to know me personally, they are easily to jump to the worst scenario possible! Not even thinking that it could be something else. (All the while they're sitting in their wheelchair 100-200lbs OVERWEIGHT!!!) and I'm not judging them.
The one time I was able to get out to check out a gym, I was met with even MORE ridicule..... guys asking the most vile questions and jokes. (And I'm a bodybuilder!!!) It truly baffles me how cruel that people are nowadays.
But now, I'm actually unable to get out of the house (unable to drive) and they do not offer disabled busing services here. So I feel like a prisoner in my own home.
No matter how hard I try, my "funk" is hanging on.
But I thank you for your support and kindness 😊
09 Oct 17 by member: TattodWheelChick
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