MallowPuff's Journal, 07 Sep 15

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I was so close last night to breaking my food plan and getting some ice cream. It's SO HOT, with nearly 100% humidity, so the heat index is really high. The ice cream would have been delicious and so creamy and cool. But... I sat down and wrote the reasons why I wanted to stay the course. I put in the FEELING reasons rather than common sense reasons because I know FEELINGS are what drives me. I connected with that feeling I have when I feel strong and self assured, and how that makes me feel so capable and competent. The feelings come from ME, not from others so that if others aren't standing there ready to there/there me, I will not lose heart. Besides, I don't want success to only occur when someone pushes me. I want success to come from inside me. Anyhoo. Woke up this morning and instead of regretting ice cream (which I did not get in my car and go buy!! YAY!!), instead I lost a pound! Inspite of not walking for TWO days (I really can't take the heat/humidity, makes me feel like I'm going to black out and I have blacked out before.).

One more pound to achieve my second mini goal, to drop one dress size. It's a BIG goal because I have gotten close before and sabotaged it with ice cream. I'm not going to have even a little... once I start... I am an ice cream aholic. I am SO goal oriented that I eat ALL in the container! ARGH. MALLOWPUFF! (another reason I only buy the little containers, even though they are relatively expensive compared to the normal size). I can buy normal on sale for only 50cents more than the price of the little ones. Oh well, there is a different price I have to pay, the price of PAIN. So... NO ice cream at all until I get to my final goal. And when I do, if I have a cup of ice cream, I will go back on my food plan and zap any gain within a couple of days.

And tomorrow the heat will be under 110f heat index so I can walk outdoors again!

My next mini goal is to get under 150lbs. It will be hard. It's the place I always plateau. But I have a secret weapon. I've timed this to the weather, getting cooler so I can be more active. And I can bake my protein instead of cooking in the crockpot, which means it will have more flavor but even fewer calories!