mimi_54's Journal, 28 Sep 23

You got this! One step at a time!! 

I don't know you but I respect your will to not give up. A part not mentioned on here enough is this. We must fix our relationship with food. Before trying to lose weight. Once you have a better relationship it becomes so much easier. You figure out that you were living to eat. Instead of eating to live! Think about those words for a seconds. Also just as important is what you're telling yourself. You deserve to be healthy and happy. So start treating yourself like you do. Literally physically and mentally we become what we consume. So seek out the good in life and food. Your future self will thank you. 

Most of the medications for depression can take some time to start working. Are you sleeping better since getting the CPAP? OSA can really be detrimental to your health. If you aren't sleeping well, it can worsen the depression for sure.  

I struggled with depression most of my life, and it was always accompanied by weight gain. It took me years to sort out that gluen, all grains and sugars were a big part of the problem. Once I went low carb my mental health improved enormously and I was able to feel positive and to lose weight. I remain low carb now, because if I don't both the weight and the blues creep back. Llisten to youTube videos from Dr. Palmer, Dr Eades - both Harvard Psychiatrists who treat depression and other mental illnesses with diet. This was life-saving for me. 

gluten - typo. 

Also daily movement is part of the solution, too, though it's hard when you are heavy. Do what you can, then try to do a bit more each day. 

Depression sucks cheese-balls! One of the things I learned through therapy that helped me most of all was to learn to put myself first sometimes and not feel guilty about it! We are important too! No one can love you like you can! ...and it helps others as well, because you can express your love for others to a greater extent when you love yourself first. It's an energy thing. Meditation & Meditation music is a tremendous help also! It's incredible what an impact different music/sound can have on us. The type of music playing at the gym even affects my workout. They had on the news the other day (ugh!), and I had to try my best to just block it out. What we consume in all inlets affects our daily lives. They types of food are also included. For me, grains & sugar have a TERRIBLE effect on my mental state, energy level, and overall well-being. Also, studies have shown that exercise/strength training does the same thing that antidepressants do, increasing serotonin & dopamine. I wish you well on your journey here & all things in life! (((HUGS))) 🫂💜❤️‍🩹 

Get back on The Horse, babe. We love you over here and we love to support those on their weight loss journey, no matter what mile marker you are passing. 😘 

Good on you for turning around. That's the hardest part - being ready to start.  

I really understand you! Depression makes me feel guilty that I often don't have the strength to do something like cleaning or washing dishes, let alone exercise. And when my episode gets heavier, I don't care so much about what I eat. Everything seems pointless. I'm starting to think that I'm so useless and worthless by myself. That it's not a disease, but just my character traits - laziness, apathy, and so on. But it's not! And when I think about the moments when I felt better, I realize that not everything is so bad. I decided for myself that I want to lose weight not because I will look better, but because I want to feel better. Antidepressants, unfortunately, do not help me very well. So I just try to move as much as I can, the way I like, without forcing myself. Everything that people say about overcoming and willpower is good, as long as you don't struggle every day with a mental disorder. I believe that you will succeed! It's a hard road, but it's worth it 

Welcome back and good luck on your journey! So sorry for your troubles, glad you're feeling better. 💚💜💛 

Welcome back and you'll get lots of support here!👍 

Hi Mimi, let’s say we all do this together. I’m fairly new to FS, but not to some unhealthy eating habits, I have found some meaningful benefits in connecting with this community. For instance, what Joe Not Exotic effectively expressed in this very thread…definitely think on what he took time to share, a lot of truths in that post, that could save others years of frustration! Many others, just here alone, opening up with their well earned insights, experiences, failures and successes! All over FS, others, maybe not long on words, but equally supportive…in every word, symbol, emoji, etc! small bytes of info that can be gathered, like tools, to get the work done. I have found that my “Why’s” help keep me on track. WHY, do you want it to work this time? I wish for you, (and others) all the success you’d like to obtain!  

Foodyduty - That was very kind of you to say! I do try to be authentic here and give real insight. Of at least the things I've done that I know will work. Thank you for noticing.  

Welcome back Mimi. Starting over means you have found the courage to make a necessary change. there are many here who are ready to walk this road with you. 

@JoeISexotic... I just read your comment, "we are what we consume", my sentiments exactly! SO TRUE!!! We are what we watch on TV, read in a book, eat, ect. Everything we expose ourselves to in life affects us. 

You can do it! 

Hello Mimi. I am so sorry you have been having a rough year but I’m glad you came back and are here to try again. The weight loss rollercoaster is a ride most of us have been on, more than once, and often throughout our lives. I don’t think I’m depressed but I do spend far too much time rehashing the past in my head and wishing I had done this or that differently. Instead of focusing on what I can do today or tomorrow to achieve my goals and not be looking back with more regret. I want to be around for my husband and daughter longer than my mom was for me. In your case I see a very cute little person with toy in your profile pic. So I hope you can get back to tracking your meals and whatever exercise you are able to do and I’ll say a prayer that things get better and hopefully less stressful in your life.  

Every day, bit by bit, we can learn something; try something that makes a difference. The beauty of this community is that we're all striving together and sharing what's working (or not). And at any given moment, someone might say just what you are ready to make use of. Day by day, we're helping each other. 

Depression hits everyone girl so don't feel shameful or guilty about it, you're just one of a few that acknowledges the fact and thats a great step right there!!! I think its easy to turn to food, in the moment you think its comforting but its not, just hides your feelings much like any vice.. drinking or binge eating .. but better late than never:)