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Today was difficult- no -Today was hard.
My depression engulfed me slowly. My eating disorder manifested to the point where I was purging the water I drank a couple of times this evening. All the music i listened to was sad. Stereotypical I guess except for the fact i was able to workout to it. I constantly questioned my self-worth today. I laid in bed, sulked, and sobbed over the fact Connor wasn't truly planning to see me. My heart hurt today. I didn't want to eat. My mother came up around 6 with water and a granola square. Dinner was at 8, I came to eat after 9.
I didn't get the chance to weigh myself before I ate & drank anything so no weigh in.
its 3:44am. I am so tired. i am going to set my alarm for 10. I'm going to go to sleep and tomorrow will be a better day. breakfast at noon? unless plans change ♡ I really miss him.
🌜Good night🌛
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57.8 kg
Lost so far: 25.8 kg.
Still to go: 0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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steady weight
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