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so I'm actually 140. I just dont have the guts to put in my cw. I'm obsessing again- daily weigh ins, less of everything. Fit into a size 6 dress yesterday and bought it cuz I rly like it on myself. I'm really proud of me for that. Trying on a dress looking in the mirror and being able to FEEL nice.
It so strange how I am my old ultimate goal weight. Why do I want more? Why can't I shut it out? Why isn't it enough?
Every positive and negative comment about my body or the way I look gets converted into some kind of motivation like- I must be doing something right. They're proud of me for my physical changes but sometimes I look in the mirror and don't see a difference.. other times I look in the mirror and don't recognize the girl staring back at me. Where did her full cheeks go? Is she okay? She has sleepless bags under her eyes. I was so full of life. Where did I go?
I think the new goal is 124.5- by july 15th?
15.5 lbs in 57 days. -0.271 lbs a day. 1.903 lbs a week. I think I can do it.
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63.2 kg
Lost so far: 20.3 kg.
Still to go: 0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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176 kcal
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Fat: 2.86g | Prot: 7.27g | Carbs: 31.15g.
Breakfast: Oatmeal. Snacks/Other: Decaffeinated Tea Unsweetened. more...
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steady weight
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