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24 June 2020
I haven't been weighing myself lately and I just been letting myself go and eat whatever I want, today I weighed myself and I weigh 203.7 lbs...omg
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Diet followed:
92.4 kg
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48.9 kg
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Gaining 0.1 kg a Week
23 October 2019
Hi Guys,
It's been a long time since I last recorded a journal , my life as well as my weight have been like scary roller coasters , going up and down on a 180 degree angle . Just an update, I found a boy who loved me for who I am , he didn't think I was fat , he accepted the real me but I turned him down because he isn't the boy I like, he was sad so he joined the army ,and never returned. I then found a boy that I like , I starved myself just to be with him , I didn't want him to look down on me because of my weight , and we finally got together. It was a romantic relationship at first, I loved him and he would hold my hands and say how much he loves me , and later on he started to talk about my weight . He started to compare me with other girls who are paper thin. He didn't care about how I feel , him and his family would gang up on me and say horrible things to me , while I was sitting in the corner , shivering and crying on silent. I had to call the suicidal hotline at one point , because I had severe depression I was out of job. That is when I discovered binge eating , at the moment that was the only thing that would make me slightly happy about my life. I closed up myself and just kept eating , I gained so much weight and I weighted 200+ lbs. Believe it or not , I'm still with the guy who body shamed me and mentally bullied me , my friend would advise me to leave him but it feels like I'm trapped in a mental jail. I'm not sure if that's the right word to describe it , but I started to tolerate everything he done to me , and I became more and more depress , more and more anxious , and more and more suicidal. I paid for his food , cooked for him and cleaned his house , and his mom would come over and accuse me of not taking care of her son and he would say to his mom , infront of my face , that " it's not like I'll marry her or anything " .I stood there and cried, I did everything for him and he let his mom bully me. He didn't stand up for me when he knew that wasn't the truth. I'm not his girlfriend, I'm merely a maid who charge $0 / hour to do chores. I feel like a tool that people will take advantage of me , but when I'm not needed , no one will care about me or defend for me. I cried in my car while my friend kept me company , she told me to have more self esteem , she told me i'm perfect and I need to be strong. This world is tough , but we can't just get defeated . There are monsters out there who are waiting to attack you and destroy you , but you have to keep going and be brave. Fight back ! I was weak , I let my coworkers abuse me , I let my boyfriend abuse me , and I never stood up for myself. I want to continue my diet journey and exercise self control and get my life backin track. NO MORE STRESS OVER UNWORTHY PEOPLE , OR UNWORTHY THINGS . No more relationship drama, no more feeling depressed at work , focus on my weight loss and my exercise rountine , focus on my job , and be someone awesome. If you are reading this journal , there's one thing I'd like to add, I been doing yoga for the past few days , and yoga is magical !
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27 April 2018
This past week is like hell to me , I went to the gym , I ate less, I ate salad , I wanted to eat carb but I'm scared . I had period for 3 times in a month , my body is in a total mess. I exercise for 2 hours everyday , eat less than 1000 calories , and when I weight myself I gained 10 pounds ....for numerous times I thought about Why I live in this world , when I walk outside I feel like everyone will think I'm a fat monster . For numerous times I thought about killing myself , but I love my family , I love my boyfriend , I love my dog and I can't imagine one day they cry over my grave and I will never be able to see them again. I quit my job earlier and just hide in my room ...
I started to hate the world , hate myself , I'm so conscious about calories , every bite I take makes me depress ...if only I can talk to someone about my problem , but I have no one to talk to ..I started on this diet pill I really hope it will work ..
Weight:
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Diet followed:
86.1 kg
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42.5 kg
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Gaining 0.2 kg a Week
25 April 2018
Hi Guys ,
I'm back ... my weight has been up and down , and I was really upset . Today I called a weight loss surgery place and scheduled a consultation for orbera balloon . So basically they put a ball filled with saline in your stomach and you won't be able to eat as much , I don't know how well this will work on me but this is my only hope. I'm hopeless, I been trying to only eat salad and I've only lost some water weight and I'm so scared that my life will just be like this .
Good news :
I have a boyfriend now , who loves me despite the fact that I'm fat ....
bad news :
suicidal thoughts , depression , low self-esteem issues
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15 July 2017
Hi forum ,
For the past few days my weight went up to 180 pounds and that really scared me !
So I started to really watch what I put in my mouth , I realize it is hard for me to skip dinner,
because sometimes I just get really hungry , and feeling hungry just makes me unhappy, and feeling unhappy makes
me unable to concentrate on my school work .....
So instead of skipping dinner or eating a full dinner every night , I eat tofu or veggie soup for dinner.
( less calories and can quickly fill up my stomach) , and good news ! I lost 6 pounds in one week without rebound !
If anyone is interested , here is my recipe:
Tofu:
put raw soft tofu and green salad in a bowl , put 1 teaspoon of wine vinegar and a sprinkle of sea salt ,and mix them
together with the tofu .
Veggie Soup :
For veggie soup , I just use slice tomatoes , onions, cabbage , or any veggie I can find in my fridge ~I just add half
teaspoon of sea salt to the soup to give it some flavor ~
Thanks for reading my journal ^^
Weight:
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Diet followed:
78.9 kg
2.7 kg
35.4 kg
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