Welllll.... This the frist day of the rest of my life.I am a 31 year young mother of 4.I just ended an 8 year relationship with their father,and I recently fell in love with someone very speical.Me! For the frist time I think in my life I am finally realizing the beauty and satifaction of loving me frist{next to GOD of corse}.I now know that the person I've been looking for to love me uncondtionally has been here all along.You see I convenced myself that when I lost weight,when I got a job,when I got a better house, when I got a car, when I found someone who would have great sex with me,then and only then I would be happy.Guess what! that came and went and I was still unhappy, it wasn't until I lost almost everything that I realized that those things where only things and they didn't make me at all.Some where along the line I forgot about someone,that strong, soft,caring,confident,and sexy woman had been replaced by someone who got lost in crazy demands of everyone else around her.so she went into a self coma. well I'm happy to report she has awaken and all is well.I am standing on my own and I am ready to take baby steps fulfill my purpose in this world.1st step is loving me enough to know I'm worth being put 1st sometimes.