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Have you wandered around in circles long enough yet? I know I have. By the end of Saturday night...I was DESPERATE for it to be JULY! ;) And now it is... (thank God for small miracles!)
Ok folks, just so you know... my old me...the confident, strong, put it all out there me - for the sake of myself and everyone else - is back!
I have survived the death of two parents, cancer, marriage issues, 3 teenagers/young adult issues, ... and so much more... and I have come out stronger. How can that be? I didn't feel like I was getting stronger at the time, but then I would guess that is a great reason to not base our reality on our feelings.
Bottom line - I have some work to do. I have not yet weighed in (for a month now), and will not likely weigh in until WEDNESDAY...my own personal Independence Day!!! But I have some sneaking suspicions I have some 'recovery work' to do in the weight department.
I have been lax. I have eaten what I want, when I want, if I want... and I have made no excuses.
(I will say, even w/ that attitude, ice cream has been my biggest issue - and perhaps a margarita here or there! LOL!)
Whatever, it is what it is! And I will be honest, and record it... and then I will have a complete picture of what comes next. Because I WILL be refacing my original goals, and this unwanted extra weight will have to go!
I suspect I am about 10 lbs heavier than I want to be. And no matter what any of you think, (which I so appreciate your lovely comments from the wedding)... it's about what I think.
I like me. I like me just the way I am - right now. So if I did nothing to change anything - that would be perfectly fine.
But I actually feel uncomfortable. And 10 or so lbs ago, when I was a bit lighter, I didn't feel that way.
I am not a mad exerciser. I never will be. But I am willing to be more active. I enjoy so many active things...and I want to continue to enjoy them. Lately, it has been harder, and more tiresome - when you feel out of shape while doing them. So, that too will change a little.
A little more consistency in the food selection & activity departments!! That will be my July goals. And a reduction in stress through personal reflections on the blessings and joy of my life.
I'm about to have a birthday - and they generally lead to a bit of reflection as I approach each one (turning 49 this year) ... I want to make this the year I commit to honor myself, and do for me the things I have always wanted to do. And that will include reaching my goal weight, enjoying my activities, and loving lavishly those God puts in my path.
Much Love.
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