fabdis's Journal, 15 Jan 18

I feel ya!! I look at myself and see the same thing. I see a fat girl, who will never be anything more than that. I hate it, I struggle every single day. You just have to remember, we are more than a pant size, we are more than a number on a scale and we are God made and perfect. No matter our weight, our size. I realized something the other day, along with your body changing, your mind has to change to. You have to learn to accept yourself, no matter if you lost a pound or gained an ounce, you are still a winner, you are working towards a better you and that is what makes you a success. You are always a success if you keep going, giving up is what makes us fail.  

Those are awesome words Klynn82. It's something I think a lot of us need to think about. I know I do. 

You are right, we have to learn how to love ourselves, it is hard, but with time I think I’ll be able to look in the mirror and be satisfied with myself. I won’t give up and I will be trying to change things, even though I feel depressed and destroyed some times. And also thank you for the kind words, you made my bad mood go away:)) 

I am super short...and struggling with weight only magnifies it! I know how hard it is, especially now that I'm mid 40's and still feel like a 20 something inside! LOL We all have rough days, but keep your head up. We are ALL more than our appearances. Make it about FEELING good...daily. I'm learning how I feel inside truly helps me keep focus on my goals outside. Much love and light to friends! 

I’m super short too and mid 30s it feels like if I’m not constantly dieting I will keep gaining weight I love these encouraging words I often feel like I’m the only one who feels this way but I see now that I’m not!! 

I’m short and older. It is an uphill climb everyday. 🐢 

Hi! I've been fat my entire life, even when I have been on the lighter side I was still in society's eyes fat. When I eat healthy and count calories and exercise I maintain an overweight size. If I stopped I would probably be 600lbs. I think I'm just genetically predisposed to this. I'm trying this keto diet, because I have blood sugar problems. It's hard being judged by people who have no idea how hard I work to be healthy. It's taken me a long time to get to a point where I was ok with people not getting it. I just wanted to share with you that I understand what you're going through and you're not alone! 

ALL these words help. The biggest freedom I have found as I get older is that I have learned I can NOT live for anyone else and that the only opinion that TRULY matters is my own. Not to sound selfish but you realize you'll never make everyone happy. It is very freeing. ;) 

. I have been fat for 5 years, my body looks very unhealthy not just because of fat, my muscle mass is also very low. I am trying so hard to get fit, but it is not easy for me. When I don’t see the results, I want to quit, but I am not quitting. This journey is hard not just because of physical difficulties, but also mental difficulties. Every day is a battle against myself, which doesn’t love herself, who wants to eat junk food and do nothing. But you know the saying: “what does not kill you, makes you stronger”. This battle against myself makes me stronger so I won’t quit on working on myself even trough i have hard times. Yeah, these words really do help. It makes me feel better, that i am not alone and there are people who understand me And also you all for making me feel better:)) 

I also have a different outlook about myself. I know I am a Diabetic and my BS was getting out of control,that scared me because my mother had her toes taken off and died from Kidney failure. So if I know that, then I should know that am walking down the same path. So I ask myself "what are you going to do about it?" I started studying the bad effects of food and realized that food was not my friend anymore,it gives me no comfort anymore and it is only making me sick and stressed out about my BS and Heart. So I made a list of all the good foods I can have and I only eat those foods. Yes, I get cravings at night for something to crunch on yes I go out to dinner,but now I am making smarter choices.I think I have found peace of mind and I can do this for me. 

I totally get how depression can distort reality and it’s absolutely valid and ok and good to feel whatever you feel. But I hope you can always remember that feelings are temporary. You’re doing great and, regardless of diets or exercise or anything physical, you are loved and you are not alone and even if it feels like it never will, I promise that the sun always, always comes up again after the night. You won’t always feel like this, so hang in there! :)