I wish I could give you some magic words of wisdom to make you feel better about yourself, but unfortunately I don't. I used to get so down on myself for not having finished college and wanting a degree, not having my dream job, not being the thin, energetic mom I wanted to be, and so much more. But, in the past couple of years I've seen people I really care about pass away, and it really made me reflect on the important things in my life. I knew I wanted to be healthy, not just thin, I have 2 children who are wonderful and I may not always have energy to be up and going, but I can still have meaningful time with them, and I can get my degree, it will just have to be when I have time. I used to feel like a failure, and that does come back every so often, but I know I'm alive and have family who loves me, so I do have things to be thankful for. We only live once, so lets find the joys in life, not focus on the sorrows. I hope you can find some inner peace, because you are a beautiful, worthwhile person who deserves to be truly happy.