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I'm not happy. My life right now... it doesn't make me happy. I'm in a dead end relationship with my live-in boyfriend. I feel inadequate at my job. I hate living in Memphis, TN. I have no friends, outside of family and my boyfriend.
The only things that are currently going right in my life are my diet, exercise, and my savings. Thank goodness I'm past the point in life where I thought that being thin would fix everything. Nope, I see my life's problems for what they are. And for what they're not. And they are definately not fixed with diet and exercise. They are fixed seperately, and with planning.
Let me look at all of my problems individually:
First, there's my relationship with my live-in boyfriend. I know what went wrong here: We moved too fast. We moved in together months after meeting. Another problem is that I don't trust him. He's done nothing to deserve this, but I can't trust him, despite how much I've tried. And God knows I've tried. I need to end things with him. That will solve the problem of being in this relationship. However, ending things with him will create a whole new list of problems, and I'm not sure I'm ready to face that yet. So it's a case of knowing what I need to do, but still not doing it. My fault.
Second problem: I feel inadequate at my job. I'm working on this in my therapy sessions. I have never felt deserving of any job I've had, even the ones that I've hated. So the job that I actually kind of enjoy, of course I feel undeserving and inadequate. I'm not sure how to fix this, outside of working on my self-esteem, and making absolute sure that I'm fulfilling my job requirements and duties.
Third problem: I hate living in Memphis, TN. The only way to fix this is to move. And I have a plan in action to make this happen, so I just have to wait that out.
Fourth problem: I have no friends. I'm not sure how to solve this problem. Maybe join a church group or something, but I'm not religious. There has to be another way to make friends in Memphis outside of church and school.
One thing at a time!
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1425 kcal
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Fat: 28.06g | Prot: 55.64g | Carbs: 239.99g.
Breakfast: trix yogurt, Pop Tarts Frosted Chocolate Fudge. Lunch: baked lays, green beans, cheese 2% slice, honey ham luncheon meat, light wheat bread. Dinner: salsa, reduced fat wheat thins, grapes, tomato soup, light wheat bread, cheese slice. Snacks/Other: cocoa puffs, popcorn, Pop Tarts Frosted Chocolate Fudge. more...
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