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I am so falling apart. I got all geared up to go to the gym and then didnt due to the ice. Maybe I'll stop by on the way home. Either way the DDR mat is there for me. I am feeling unmotivated and antsy I need motivation. I'd like to say hey you can get new clothes but um year have no money and temp contract is ending soon. Some for any other thing really. The one prize I do have and like is the fact that my pants are a lot looser. The one thing that just popped in my head is that pair of size 12 dress pants. I havent been able to fit into those in ages. Okay I will dig them out and try them on when I am wondering about my weight instead of frantically weighing myself. Altough that in itself could be discouraging because I know I wont have a job soon. The stress from that is eating me alive truly. I dont know how to calm myself down. It would be fine if it just was that I wasnt getting it but its more so that the other person I work with is probably getting it and I trained her so its really a super bummer and makes me depressed. *sigh* I guess the best revenge is to walk in the last day of work looking super hot?
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