kristy1121's Journal, 24 Oct 11

I have had that happen to me. I think in my case it is a weird way of rewarding myself for behaving. If it had been me at your party, mentally I would have been, "I was so good at the party I didn't even cheat." Sometimes I find it easier to say no when there are lots of people around, but when in private and it's up to me to keep myself in check sometimes I blow it. Total self sabatoge on my part! Learning how to correct it is the hard part. I still haven't come up with a solution for that. I just wanted to let you know that your not alone. Today is another day. 

Edsontrace - Thank you so much. I am a self sabatoger too! I just weighed myself and I'm about to cry. I'm going back on induction (hard core) for two weeks. I hope this helps!! 

OMG! I am in exactly the same boat guys! I am so upset with myself today for what I did yesterday. I didn't do so bad on Saturday, especially considering that I too was at an event with lots of temptations. I was hurting and yet I still got in a little bit of a workout. Granted I had to go slow but I did it. Then came Sunday and I lost it :-( I think you make a great point edsontrace. Being alone makes it harder to control yourself. It does feel good to know that I can talk to others about this. I felt so bad I almost didn't want to write in today. I felt like how could I talk to any FS members when I wasn't a good example.  

M.Trublu - We have been in sync the last couple of weeks - with us both losing .2 last weigh in and with out bad Sunday... Let's be in sync and turn this around! Why are we doing this, after all our hard work. I'm so mad. I'm back up to 180!!! I haven't been this heavy since May! I'm done, done, done with the nonsense. I just went on the Atkins site, printed out the acceptable food list for induction and that's what I'm doing for at least 2 weeks. I'll re-assess the situation from there and decide if I can go back on OWL, or if I need to stay on induction a bit longer. I need to get rid of the cravings, and induction is the only way I can get back on target. I'm wearing a pair of black jeans today that I haven't worn in about 5 months because they were big... now, they feel a bit tight :( Mad, mad, mad!! Maybe this is what I needed, I just wish I could have more discipline before getting to this point where I'm so unhappy with myself.  

Kristy, don't beat yourself up so badly. Most of the weight gain is water weight and it will come off rather quickly. Especially if you go back to induction as you say you are going to do. I too cheated this weekend :( and I am rather upset about it, as you are. I went for months and never tasted a bite of bad carbs. But here lately, I allow myself to cheat every few weeks or so. And I feel like I keep gaining and losing the same 10 pounds over and over. Not what I want to do! Maybe we can help each other stay true to our Atkins WOE. I know I sure need help! Thanks- Susan 

Kristy, ditto feeling bad this morning. What is it about the weekend? With me at my age I don't even have to blink a little and wooops the weight comes up again. Let's quit feeling bad; this is a new week and we can do it! God bless you my friend. :) 

Susan - I have also been gaining and losing the same 10 pounds for almost 4 months! It is so crazy. This would be all fine and good if I was in maintenance, but I still have 20 pounds to go... 25 now :( I am here to support you, and I could definitely use your support too. I have no one in my house hold or in my circle of friends who I can speak to when I'm having a moment like this. No one gets it! Thank God for all of you and Fat Secret!! 

Gigi - It is so upsetting to me that I cannot eat any of the foods that I've loved all my life without the weight coming right back. I have to get over it and find something else to replace them with. I think I need to cut my tv time... I didn't watch tv all weekend - until Sunday night and that is when my fiasco happened. Maybe I'll read instead... (SIGH) God Bless you, and no more feeling mad at myself. Onward and upward! 

Same thing here Kristy, no one realizes how bad cheating is for a low carb diet at my house either! Lol, we work and struggle and like you say, pass up on the really bad high carb food, and then blow it all over a piece of candy or something! For me it was pizza and a krispy creme doughnut :( Both feel good foods. I still have about 30 pounds I want to lose. I messed up my diet counter on here. But if you go to my weight history you can see how much I have lost since May. I'm about half way there. I am so glad we can help each other :D 

We are SO in sync Kristy. That is so interesting to me. Let's stay in sync and go EXTRA Hard now! Like you, I am going to let yesterday go and focus on today and this week. I am going to be strict on my diet and work out consistently. We can do it. YES we can! Gigi, that means you too :-) You have come so far and I know it is in you too. We will get over this and get to our goal weight. Let me know how I can keep you motivated.  

Susan - You really have come far. Great weight loss history! You are on the right track. I need to get my ticker going back in the downward direction. I was doing so good in the beginning and I loved the way I felt when I saw a results for my efforts. Everytime I lose weight (there have been many, many times that I've dieted - and always gained it back), I get so close to the goal I've set for myself and then throw in the towel when I get close enough and the weight stops falling off. Something in my head tells me, "Oh Good! Glad that's done. Now I can start eating what I like again." The truth is, I'll never be "done" and I won't ever be able to eat carbs for breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snacks in between. This will be a struggle forever and this is only going to be as easy or as hard as I make it on myself. Let's stick together and we'll get there! 

M.Trublu - I am going to make a promise to you and to me that I'm going to give it my all this week. I weigh in on Thursday and I know if I give my 100% I will have a loss I can be proud of on Thursday. So can you! Let's make it happen :) 

I will make that same promise to you. To hold myself accountable I will let you know how I plan to stick to my diet and workouts so that I can have a loss on my next weigh in too. For today I plan to go to the gym after I get off tonight. You can hold me to that :-)I have kept to my diet today and will continue to do so for the rest of the day. The evening is when I find it the hardest. But since I plan to hit the gym tonight it shouldn't be too hard. And even if it is, no temptation will stump us up this week. We are doing this!!! :-)