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***This is not a weightloss journal, just in case you don't want in on my personal life, otherwise you may continue***
I had this friend that I have considered a best friend for 7 years. She hasn't been doing very well financially or stability wise for the last couple of years. After knowing better because of her past, I reluctantly decided to loan her what I feel is a large amount of money (as I am a single mom) to help her move into a new place because she was homeless. Within two weeks, we get into an argument and she blames it on my new boyfriend (6 months at the time) and we are no longer talking. That was in June. I found out that she did not use my money to move into the place because she got assistance from two programs in our town. I found out about a month ago that she moved out of her place and moved to Oregon into my little sister's house.
Here we are in September and I am upset with my sister because she is having her live there with her and this "friend" is basically stealing from my children because she is not making payments (this was from a credit line that I now have to make the payments on). My sister gets upset at me, saying that she is not this "friend" and she is a big girl, she doesn't need me looking out for her (as I was also saying that this "friend" would do the same to her).
Then this "friend" gets on facebook and starts sending me nasty messages, saying that I told the "welfare" dept that she moved out of state, and that I told her car company where she was and got her car repoed. First off I DID NOT contact her car company as much as I wanted to, but even if I had it is not MY fault that she isn't making her payments. Then she starts sending messages that she is going to be making calls and telling everyone about me, my job, etc. There is nothing she can say that is true, but if she calls and makes up stories/lies it would cause trouble for me that I would have to sort out. Then she starts texting my boyfriend saying crap about me to him (luckily he knows she is crazy).
Worst off, and as I am typing this my heart is physically in pain.... I don't even want to think about it. (a little background, my husband passed away almost 2 years ago in November. It was an accident, but people that don't know the situation may think he commited suicide). She sends me a face book message that I should be glad I married into a wealthy family (which they aren't but that doesn't matter) before he took his life to get away from me! I couldn't believe that - My BEST friend of seven years would actually do that to me! I message her that she is low and she has ruined any chance of us ever being friends again and to STOP CONTACTING ME!
She sends me another message that I was low for contacting the "welfare" office and her car people, and I ruined our chances when I did that! How dare her even compare the two things! And she goes on to say that I sent my husband to an early grave, and I treated him like shit.
I can forget all the other crap she said to me, which I left a lot out here. But I just can't get over her talking about my husband that way! How can I trust people when my supposed best friend would do that to me?!?! My heart is really hurting, it's physically hurting to breathe.
I could have come back with so much to hurt her back, but the pain I'm feeling, I would never want to put that onto someone else. It's one thing getting mad at someone, but stabbing them in the heart like that is just WRONG!!!!
I could go on and on, but I had to get that out. I will have to forgive her as God would, but right now it hurts. and even after I forgive that doesn't mean I ever have to be friends with her again, I am so done!
View Diet Calendar, 12 September 2011:
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1012 kcal
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Fat: 30.23g | Prot: 84.08g | Carbs: 111.51g.
Breakfast: Fried Egg without Fat, Low Sodium V8 100% Vegetable Juice, Cooked Mature Onions (Fat Not Added in Cooking), Green Peppers, Yellow Sweet Peppers. Lunch: Chicken with Mushroom Gravy, Mixed Salad Greens, LITEHSE LITE RANCH DRESSING, Cucumber (with Peel). Dinner: Sea Salt, asparagus, Yellow Sweet Peppers, Green Peppers, Cooked Mature Onions (Fat Not Added in Cooking), tomatoes, LITEHSE LITE RANCH DRESSING, Mixed Salad Greens, Cucumber (with Peel), 96% Fat Free Heart Healthy Whole Wheat Tortillas, Light Mayonnaise, Original No-Stick Cooking Spray, 96% Fat Free Maple Turkey Bacon (Eating Right). Snacks/Other: black pepper, Fudge Bars (No Sugar Added), Red Bull Sugarfree, Tap Water, Sea Salt, Fat Free Cottage Cheese, Light Cheese Heads String Cheese Sticks, Grape Tomatoes. more...
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3072 kcal
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Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 3/kph - 15 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 9 hours and 25 minutes, Sleeping - 6 hours, Walking (moderate) - 5/kph - 20 minutes. more...
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