Ugh...I've had a discogram done before. By the name, you'd think it would be fun, but...not so much. Really sorry to hear about the stupid red tape you have to deal with. Try not to let yourself get wrapped up in it. Things WILL get better, sometimes at times like this is helps me to not think too far ahead. Just focus on what you can do right now, today that is good for you. Once that's done, then worry about the next thing. Taking things in small, manageable chunks can make it a little easier to get through rough patches. Hang in there.