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Oh my God. I wish this website had existed (or did it?) a few years ago. I hope it proves to be as awesome as it looks. I like the organization and whatnot...it sucks that they calculate whether the nutritional data of a particular food is possible...but actually that's a good thing in the long run, just a bummer.
Anyhow...I recently rejoined Weight Watchers Online...I'm not so thrilled with their site but I paid $65 for 3 months so I may as well try it out. I'll see if I like Fat Secret. Despite the name. I want to lose 100 lbs. There, I said it. I might not make it the whole way, but I'll probably be happy at 150 or even 175. I have to try. And 150 is still 80 lbs away.
It's possible. If Faye Kalmbach can do it, I can too. Even in my crazy-busy life. I will start today, and when I screw up, I'll get back on. I'll try eating weird things. (Yes, maybe even Tofu Shirataki noodles) I'll drag my fiance to the supermarket, and maybe even to the gym. And I'll let him introduce me to frisbee and biking.
Gotta start somewhere. Let's start with the next 20 years.
So how's today going so far? Goodish. Kinda depressed and stressed over taxes and rain. Skipping a class currently, mostly because I was too "meh" to get off my ass. I'd planned on hitting the gym in between classes, but got derailed by taxes and then discovered I was missing a form. I managed to call my old employer (not the most fun idea) to get a copy. She's supposed to call me Thursday..and if she doesn't, I'll call back then. Okay. Done with.
But of course, all this stress makes me want to either crawl under the covers and hide or at least sit on my ass...or to eat large quantities of sugar. Sugar is a drug. I'm addicted. It's true. But rather than go on a "Sugar Busters" diet or something of the sorts, I need to realize when I am eating because I'm hungry and when I'm eating because I'm tired, out of energy, bored, or stressed. Sounds simple, right? But my body is so programmed to use food as a response, a universal fix-all solution, that I just think "want food" or at least "want sugary, syrupy coffee drink". Sugar. And caffeine, but mostly sugar and carbs..which of course are sugar.
I think tracking food will be helpful...but also I need to figure out what I can eat and do besides eating that can help me to stick to what I need and not eat randomly. It's that element that's so depressing. My body image, purely physically, isn't much lower than the average chick's (I don't think anyway)...which has improved since high school, despite my increasing weight. Rather, it's the depression that's linked to the consumption of bad foods, the addiction, the humiliation that people will "know I'm fat" when they see me eat, rather than just by looking at me. It's weird but true.
Oh, the things you discover by blogging.
So other than food, I need to exercise. I'm slowly starting to acquire some muscles via personal training. I have to do more of that.
Which is what I will go do at 4pm, no excuses.
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1950 kcal
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Fat: 45.64g | Prot: 62.29g | Carbs: 356.35g.
Breakfast: Pineapple Chunks in Unsweetened Pineapple Juice, la tortilla factory, total cranberry crunch, over the moon fat free milk, kraft free cheddar, v-fusion tropical orange, eggs made simple. Lunch: maple grove farms crunchy peanut butter, banana, jello sugar free chocolate pudding, chex turtle, Lord of the Onion Rings (HG). Dinner: Sparkling Cider, Colby Jack Cheese, Baked Naturals Pretzel Thins Savory Cheddar, yum, toll house semi sweet mini morsels. more...
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3500 kcal
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Exercise:
Music playing - 1 hour, Exercise machine (moderate) - 45 minutes, Weight Training (moderate) - 30 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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