I'm back, and feeling human again after a long travel day on Sunday with a very late return home for this early bird. Of course that was complicated by the time difference & daylight savings time change. But I'm feeling good again, & great about the trip. It was the first trip in awhile where I was truly relaxed & able to enjoy myself without all the crazy, obsessive thoughts about food. Of course, they were still there & may always be, but those voices are getting quieter & letting life regain its joy… I couldn't be happier!
Plus I learned several things that I want to remember from this trip -- *Be sure to pack my letters in my luggage -- 5P's (Pause, Plate, Progress not Perfection, & Prayer) and 3C's (Curious, Calm & in Charge). Even during stressful times (such as the lost luggage on the trip there, which did by the way finally show up on Sunday), my 5P/3C plan plus breathing & journaling, will get me through & allow me to relax & enjoy. *Make time for me, but remember that I missed being with the group after too much time alone, especially when its activity focused rather than food/drink focused, so finding a balance is key. *The toughest time for me is still the return trip home, especially if I'm alone, & I did have a later than midnight snack when I got home late, tired, & feeling hungry (or so fatigued that it felt like hunger). But, I was curious through it & know for the future its better to not travel too late nor alone if/when possible. While I would have loved it be a food-free re-entry, I made progress by eating foods that kept me on my course mindfully.
And, now I'm back, ready to catch up at home & with all of you that I've missed so much! I'm off to workout this morning, then to a dr appt with my oldest (he's moving from his pediatric neurologist to an adult one -- but has been seizure free for over 2 1/2 years on medication) and home for catch up here after. Tonight, I'll finally get to catch up on your journals & can't wait to hear whats going on with you all! But, first, I'll pray --
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
And I'll continue praying, breathing, logging, posting & expressing through this one day & each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion. I'm so, so very grateful for each of amazing you, my family & IRL friends, having had a truly wonderful & fun-filled trip with much progress, and coming home to this life I love with the health & wealth to truly enjoy it! xoxox
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1311 kcal
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Fat: 58.00g | Prot: 88.00g | Carbs: 131.00g.
Breakfast: Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Vanilla Coconut Creme, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water. Lunch: Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk, Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Chocolate Coconut. Dinner: The Chia Co Chia Pod Blueberry, Stew Leonard's Healthy Eggplant Tomato Bisque. Snacks/Other: Evolve Greek Kefir, Raw Green Smoothie. more...
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1749 kcal
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Exercise:
Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 1 hour. more...
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