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All it took was a quick google search to see that there is the equivalent of about 1/2 a cup of coffee in a serving of dark chocolate -- yikes! I gave up caffeine over a year ago, so no wonder I wouldn't sleep having it after dinner. I do love the taste though, so possibly if I have it earlier in the day? I see more experimenting in my future! Also, I did see that carob is caffeine free, so will look into that as an alternative. Since i don't cook, I'll have to look at Whole Foods & my fav local health food stores to see what I can come up with, but if anyone knows of purchasable carob bars?
I'm also thinking this morning about a topic I discussed with my therapist on Monday & how interesting that her response was so similar to what we'd talked about at the mindful eating retreat. Probably dating back to being an overweight child & having an eating disorder in my twenties, I am very self-conscious at times about eating in front of others. They both spoke of thinking of having 2 voices -- a disordered eating/binge voice and a self-care voice. This came up as I now am focusing on plating my food & mindfully enjoying it when I decide to eat. But, i still feel uncomfortable doing so in front of others at times, especially if its "a treat" to me, like the dark chocolate I had been eating last weekend after dinner. I have this inner turmoil over I want something sweet but do I truly need it? And, even if I decide i do want to eat it, can I really enjoy it if I plate it and eat it with others, really DH, around? So, this weekend, I'll try to focus on making that decision & then focusing on the self-care voice while remembering that my disordered eating voice has been speaking for a long, long time & it will take time to quiet her.
But, now, I'll quietly begin in prayer --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And through this one day, and each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion, I'll pray, breathe, log, journal & express my way. I'm so grateful for each of Vibrant you, my family & IRL friends, my boy home in just 2 days :), and having the health & wealth to live this life I love, including tennis this morning. xoxox
View Diet Calendar, 26 February 2014:
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1127 kcal
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Fat: 37.86g | Prot: 87.87g | Carbs: 128.17g.
Breakfast: Isagenix Fiber Snacks - Peanut Chocolate Chew, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water, Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil. Lunch: Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk, Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Chocolate Coconut. Dinner: Cooked Green String Beans (Fat Added in Cooking), Lactaid Cottage Cheese, Cantaloupe. Snacks/Other: Mann's Sunny Shores Rainbow Salad, Whole Foods Market Avocado Vinaigrette Dressing, Ralphs Whole Raw Almonds, Evolve Greek Kefir. more...
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1963 kcal
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Exercise:
Tennis - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours and 30 minutes. more...
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