Today is not a good day - life has decided to rear its ugly side again!!!! My oldest daughter had breast cancer 2 years ago and underwent a mastectomy. She has found something suspicious in her neck and is off to the consultant tonight. Hubby had lymphoma last year and blood results are not quite right so he has to go for more tests. Grand daughter Lucy has been diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and is in a wheelchair at the moment and has an eye condition called Kerataconus making it difficult for her to see. She is worried about her mum (as are we all) and this makes her CFS worse. I am so far away and all I can do is worry. Don't know whether to stay here with hubby or travel to visit my daughter and granddaughter.
I know letting my eating go to pot won't help or make me feel better but I'm sure the large block of chocolate I keep seeing in my imagination would go some way towards it. I know, I know, after I've eaten it I'll hate myself. I'm scared to go to the store today in case I cave in. I'm telling myself I am a strong woman and my faith and common sense will see me through and the good Lord doesn't send anything you can't cope with, but I just want to ask why. Send up a prayer for me today
View Diet Calendar, 08 October 2008:
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996 kcal
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Fat: 60.88g | Prot: 61.60g | Carbs: 65.44g.
Breakfast: coffee, egg, canadian bacon. Lunch: sardines, low fat salad dressing, tomato, lettuce, cucumber. Dinner: lamb, cauliflower, broccoli, cabbage. Snacks/Other: brazil nuts, grapes . more...
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3080 kcal
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Exercise:
Exercise machine (slow) - 15 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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