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Its been quite a while since I 'put pen to paper' and the kind messages from buddies have made me feel a little guilty for curling myself up in a ball and hoping the problems will go away. OH is not very well again and we have an appointment for another scan next Tuesday and with his consultant the Tuesday after and another on Thursday for the bladder chap. I could cope with everything if he wasn't so cranky and bad tempered. I do my best to take care of him and our lives but he can be so nasty. I understand that he is worried and not feeling 100% but making me feel worthless and throwing his toys out of the pram doesn't make anything any better. As a result I'm having difficulty staying on track and old habits of using food to make me feel better are creeping in.
The daylight hours are getting much shorter now and the sun has been absent for a couple of weeks now. The leaves on the trees are wonderful shades of red, yellow and bronze but they are falling fast. The morning air smells damp and earthy but we've had no frosts yet.
I'm still managing to get to the charity shop for a couple of hours but its getting a bit hit and miss. I'm doing my best to keep on an even keel and practice being kind to me even though others aren't. On a more positive note OH's nephew is coming to stay again in a week or so and he never lets outsiders see his 'other side'. He has gone to bed now so I am able to get on the computer without him commenting.
Its time I was getting some shut-eye now as I can't cope with a lack of sleep. Hope everyone is having a good week
View Diet Calendar, 13 October 2010:
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1069 kcal
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Fat: 36.63g | Prot: 54.19g | Carbs: 131.93g.
Breakfast: Total 0% Nonfat Greek Strained Yogurt. Lunch: houmous, wholemeal bread. Dinner: tomato, minced beef, tagliatelle. Snacks/Other: banana. more...
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So sorry things have been tough ... I sort of thought maybe that was the case but didn't want to say anything out loud and jinx you!! It is understandable how old "comfort" habits get activated when you are under so much stress. Wish there was something I could do to help ... please know I'm always happened to 'listen' through messages or here on your journal. Take care my friend ... PS ... mom got the papers you sent and was DELIGHTED!!! Thanks so much!!
13 Oct 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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Oh I am so sorry too that things are not going well. I have been thinking about you and wondering how you've been doing. Stress takes a horrible toll on our bodies. Do try and come here more often and journal. Although we are far away we are here to listen and support you. Please take care of yourself and know you are in our thoughts and prayers.
13 Oct 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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I can't even imagine how hard things are right now you. There have been many times food has been my comfort. The best thing about your journal is that you have the unique ability to find the beauty and the joy all around you...even on dark nights you see stars. I hope you know that we will be here to encourage whenever you need us-just for a kind word. The journey is long and it's not just about food, it's support and friendship too.
14 Oct 10 by member: sharonfriz
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Well said Sharon!! I so agree with you!!
14 Oct 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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