Lizzie983's Journal, 19 Jul 13

So, the brother of my late mother is missing since a few days.
He was in hospital for a wund on his head, he went out and never returned the hospital.
My father told me only yesterday, and since that I cannot focus on anything. I am eating like crazy, I left the new job way too early because I haven't been able to read more than a few lines today.
It's so horrible....
And it also makes me think that, now that my life seemed to have a direction again, with a new partner and a new job, I could make it. And now I start to doubt it again. It's so unfair.
The chances my uncle is still alive are very low. He was without documents, money, proper clothes and mobile phone, wondering in a city he barely knows. Police are checking for dead bodies near high bridges and I gave a picture of him to a national tv station (I am in Germany still, while this is happening in Italy).
My partner turned out to be quite useless, not supportive, unable to bear stress and to help me with the easiest tasks.
I feel so alone and so lost.
Don't know whether to go to Italy, since I cannot do more than what I am doing from here. And also because I started my new job only 3 weeks ago.

Trying to relax and sleep a bit. Watching tv series and laying on sofa.