jsfantome's Journal, 03 Jul 13

Had a moment last night with a personal victory! And feeling really good this morning for not 'caving in' to some junk food still in the house.

I have been quietly Challenging myself to a 30 day personal challenge - to fit in some kind of exercise - every day. That is going well...so far so good!

Been doing some reading (a habit I developed early on...and still do each day). Today's reading was about getting back to eating Low Carb 'AGAIN'. This had some tips...WATER (and the importance of hydration). check.

Uping my FATS (and how they push you into ketosis faster w/ less cravings)...check.

Enough PROTEIN...but not too much (as this will spill over eventually and cause an insulin response.) check.

Check. Check. Check. Looks like I am on my way.

Something is working because I can feel my energy returning. I am excited (even if it takes a long time) to think about returning to a smaller size. I have forgiven myself...and I am not 'beating myself up' anymore about it.

What I have done once, I can do again.

And the freedom of not weighing in...honestly makes me happy right now. It's a bit of rush to try something on that two weeks ago was so tight I couldn't put it on...and now...at least I can!!! Can't wait for the moment when it actually looks normal on...and feels normal on...

in other words...I can feel the gentle release of some of this weight. I can tell by the belly. I can tell by the clothes. And while I don't think most people can go by this 'method'... I am for right now.

I just know the shame and guilt I would feel if I stepped on a scale and saw a number even close to what I used to weigh. And I know it's up there. I can live w/out the WhOOO Hooo's of losing a pound here or there... to just remain focused until my clothing tells me I have gotten back to somewhere reasonable...and then I can start weighing in again. (probably once a week, like I did before.)

By the time I get back to maintenance, I want to be weighing in every day, even if I don't personally need the info. I want to make weighing in every day...a lifelong habit. But not while I am at a 'high point'.

I need to keep my head in the game...focus on all the positive changes...and look for the signs that the weight is shifting or reducing..the little signs. Which is what I have been doing. That is a boost. Positive feedback in a different way. And for me right now, it's working!

Hope you all have a great day! Much Love.

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Wishing you a wonderful and successful week! The scale can really discourage me at times and I've also decided to focus more on what Im doing and not so much on the scale. I enjoy reading you updates! Thanks again and have a wonderful day!!!  
03 Jul 13 by member: ETAMPA
The scale is just another number. It holds no real value. I think how you feel about yourself and how comfortable your clothes feel is so much more accurate. Scales aren’t 100% all the time anyway. I love hearing you sound like the Paula I know. Have a wonderful and healthy 4th. 
03 Jul 13 by member: davidsmom
Great journal -- so much progress in so little time! Good for you! As I've said before, we're each a study of one & what you're doing is working for you... which is what truly matters! Hope it's a great day for you too! 
03 Jul 13 by member: Ruhu
Paula, you're absolutely on the right track. In the early stages, I think we all go by numbers and what we can and cannot eat....the exercise we believe we must do....the weight loss we must achieve. But at some point, we have to find what truly motivates (or de-motivates) us. If not seeing a number right now works for you, then that's exactly what you should be doing. You, alone, know how you handle this whole weight issue best. And you're in the best position to determine what you'll be doing and how you'll be doing it, going forward! I think it's fantastic you can already feel the subtle differences....THAT talent will get you far! Have a safe trip and enjoy your birthday and the cruise. 
03 Jul 13 by member: Sandy701
Sounds like you're doing brilliantly, Paula. keep doing what you're doing! Happy 4th 
03 Jul 13 by member: Helewis
Rejoice in your personal victory.  
03 Jul 13 by member: BuffyBear
You sound in a good space, what a difference from such a short time ago, so I am very happy for you. I love the sensation of pulling on something and thinking it might be tight and it just slips on - so I know what you are talking about. So pleased that you are beginning to experience that. You are doing so well and very pleased for you. And thanks for your prayers and support, I appreciate it and know that God has been with us through this latest challenge. 
03 Jul 13 by member: sarahsmum
You sound GREAT! It's good to hear that you're doing right AND doing well doing it! :) Keep it up! 
04 Jul 13 by member: kingkeld
Positive Energy abounds in your post Paula! Remember be true to you :-) 
04 Jul 13 by member: JMA312

     
 

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