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Today was not a good day for a variety of reasons.
For starters, I am sore and miserable from PMS. I'm also completely stressed and overwhelmed and had to leave class early so I didn't burst into tears in the middle of the lecture. Not exaggerating, I started crying in the car on the way home.
I just feel like there's so much crap on my shoulders, so many things are pulling me in different directions and I can't handle it all. It's like all at the same time I need to be in school, work, with friends, volunteering, attempting to date, with family, etc, oh and also find time to exercise, shop, clean, etc, etc, etc.
Doesn't help matters either that no one matched with me at speed dating AGAIN. Just when I was starting to feel good about how I looked. And yeah, I know it's not something I should take personally but I'm just so freaking tired of rejection and stupid shallowness. Yeah, I get it, I'm not a size 2 and I'll never look like a model but I'm a pretty damn good catch if I do say so, so why the HELL can't I get a god damn date?
I'm just sick of everyone and everything today. I know it's temporary, I know it's stress (and probably hormones). I know this logically but all I want is to curl up somewhere dark and quiet and be left alone. I did spend a few hours watching TV when I got home since I was too stressed to face the pile of homework I have. I'm going to go get into my nice warm bed now.
I'm really not in the mood for affirmations tonight so I'm not doing them.
View Diet Calendar, 20 September 2010:
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1822 kcal
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Fat: 44.11g | Prot: 113.52g | Carbs: 254.73g.
Breakfast: Grapes, Bagel Thins - Everything, Coffee, Fat Free Milk, No Calorie Sweetener Packets. Lunch: Bottled Water, Baby Carrots, CowPals Light Low Moisture Part-Skim Mozzarella Cheese Sticks, Rold Gold Pretzel Sticks, Sliced Lite Provolone Cheese, Deli Sliced Oven Roasted Turkey Breast, Middle Eastern Flatbread. Dinner: Apples, CowPals Light Low Moisture Part-Skim Mozzarella Cheese Sticks, Baby Carrots, Water, Dijon Mustard, Sliced Lite Provolone Cheese, Black Forest Smoked Ham, pepperidge farms deli flats 7 grains. Snacks/Other: cheese wedge, rold gold pretzel sticks, trader joe's 100 calorie chocolate, claussen pickle, mini babybel light, TLC Chewy Granola Bars - Peanut Peanut Butter, TLC cranberry walnut fruit & grain bar, sugar free vanilla syrup, skim milk, Cream (Half & Half), Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), No Calorie Sweetener Packets, Chamomile Tea (Brewed). more...
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3525 kcal
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Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 3/kph - 10 minutes, Housework - 30 minutes, Driving - 1 hour and 35 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 3 hours and 35 minutes, Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 10 minutes, Sitting - 30 minutes, Desk Work - 9 hours and 30 minutes. more...
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