|
If you had told me it was Monday, I would've believed you HOOK, LINE & SINKER!! Today was LIKE a BAD Monday!
No gym & probably won't happen till maybe this weekend. Decided last night I'd go to the gym at the end of the day b/c I was getting to far behind in getting ready & I needed sleep. Plus that meant I'd have to take shower stuff & that meant even more packing.
Ready to go this morning, running 20 mins late according to when I wanted to leave BUT would still be on time & early. Get on my bike, roll forward, front wheel is FLAT!! Jump off, pull my pump out of my basket, start pumping & the pump BREAKS!! I live 3.5mi away from school. At this point, walking was NOT an option. Luckily my mom said she'd drop me off (after lecturing me about not checking this stuff the night before - everything was fine 2 days ago). I felt bad that my nephew had to be rushed through doing his hair & brushing his teeth, but he said he didn't mind.
By the end of my first class I'm already starting to feel the agony of being out of my element & walking to my 2nd class I had a minor panic attack. I didn't realize how out of place I was going to feel. Returning to the land of the living yet still being in a situation where I've been locked away in my house since March is something that I can barely attempt to explain let alone for someone else to understand. By the end of my 3rd class I was depressed & wanted to cry (I didn't).
Alone again. Not feeling like making friends b/c not only am I not normal or typical, I never fit in w/ the average college students, not even when I started! I don't take pride in what I'm doing & didn't find anything that we discussed today of much interest to me. Today just brought back alot of feelings I didn't realize were still there under the surface. The only class I think I'm going to "enjoy" is my child/adolescent psych class b/c aside from reading we don't have any homework & our entire grade is a computed average of the 4 tests we take during the semester. There's 117 people in the class, so I easily fade into the background & am not the only person sitting along & not talking to anyone.
I think all the emotions I was feeling today greatly affected my stomach. I ate only half my lunch & was in agonizing pain from being overly stuffed. 4oz of chicken & 1oz of broccoli w/ 1 tbsp of parmesan & 1/6 cup of shredded cheese has yet to stuff me at that point, let alone put me in physical pain for nearly an hour. The 1/2 cup of grapes had to wait till later.
Today just kinda hit me like a truck & I wasn't expecting any of it. The bad luck, the emotions, everything. Craziness I tell ya!!!
I'm still debating on working out. I have lots of reading to do already (it's a good thing I became the master of scan reading in HS or I wouldn't be in college). Since I won't be able to get a bike pump till Thurs after I'm out of school at the earliest, it looks like I'll be walking 3.5mi to school. Do I want to? No. Can I do it? After walking 6 miles in the park on a daily basis, of course I can. Just means I high doubt I'll go to the gym then either.
Anyone else ready for next week?? = )
**Not trying to be negative but honest. Not looking for sympathy, just getting it out so I don't let it fester inside me to become an excuse for something stupid I could do. Just think I needed to say that so people don't start getting the wrong idea.**
|
2065 kcal
|
Fat: 82.77g | Prot: 110.63g | Carbs: 232.48g.
Breakfast: Real Egg Product, Sandwich Thins, Whipped Cream Cheese, Deli Select Oven Roasted Turkey Breast, Dried Organic Basil, Naturally Shredded Cheddar/Jack Cheese, Non-dairy Coffee Creamer, Rich Chocolate Hot Cocoa Mix, Coffee. Lunch: Broccoli, Naturally Shredded Cheddar/Jack Cheese, Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast, 100% Grated Parmesan Cheese, Seedless Grapes. Dinner: Cheez-It Baked Snack Crackers, 100% Grated Parmesan Cheese, Sweet Relish, Organic Tomato Ketchup, Yellow Mustard, Flame Broiled Chichen Breast Patty on Bun. Snacks/Other: Butter Spread, Kirkland Signature Raisin Bread, Krinkle Cut Cheddar & Sour Cream Potato Chips, Cheez-It Baked Snack Crackers, Yellow Mustard, Deli Select Oven Roasted Turkey Breast, 100% Grated Parmesan Cheese, Pistachio, Water (Bottled), Red Bull. more...
|
|
2743 kcal
|
Exercise:
Resting - 18 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 5 hours and 45 minutes. more...
|
|