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Well, I was doing really good and then I went out of town to stay visit my sisters. Of course what is funner than eating..........yep eating and eating and eating! I told myself before I went that I wasn't going to do that, then that is exactly what I did!!! I have very little self control, and I was only 1 pound from seeing in the 150's again, now I probably put on at least 2 pounds from all the stuff I ate! And the worse part of it is that now I had a very hard time not overeating today! That is what is hard for me, once I feel bad about blowing it, I try to make excuses up on why I should just blow it another day. Plus I didn't work out again today because I had to work all day and I used that as an excuse when I could have gotten up and worked out at 6:00 am like I used to. Why can't I get serious with this again!!! I just keep trying but I feel like I'm not trying hard enough and get disapointed in myself...............sometimes I wish i could just be overweight and happy.......but I know from my past that when I'm not working at this, I am more than miserable!! I have a very low self esteam, and it is very hard for me to not get down on myself. I will keep on keepin on I guess wish me luck! and best to you all too!
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