So I've gotten to this place in my life where I know that if I continue with my eating habits I will be obese ALL MY LIFE. Worse yet, I will be the "fat mom" who cannot keep up with her twin boys. They are toddlers, so I feel like now is a good time to finally whip this weight issue in the bud & start to play with them more to burn those extra calories. Naturally I have stress enough that I could probably be content to eat bad, bad things day in & day out & in truth that's what I've been doing.
The crazy thing is that this time one year ago & I was at my lowest weight in 8 years from the "magic" that is breastfeeding. I remember gazing down at the scale & reading a low number, being impressed, & then letting myself eat whatever I wanted after that (maybe as a reward for my achievement.) Well, once I stopped breastfeeding, it didn't take too long at all for those pounds to find me again. Here I am a year later with 30+ pounds added to my short frame. Back to square one!
My body has been on quite the roller coaster in the past 3 years. In early 2010 I weighed 200 & found out I was pregnant with twins. How terrifying! Not so much because it was twins, but because I was worried how my 5'3" frame was possibly going to handle the strain & stretch of a multiple pregnancy. Well, I made it through very well with only some swelling in the last few weeks & ended up at the end of my pregnancy at 267 pounds! After having the boys I lost half of my pregnancy weight right away & breastfeeding took care of the rest. It was only 4 short months until I shed all 67 pounds! I still had 8 more months of breastfeeding ahead of me & I knew that if I watched how much I ate, I could really make some weight loss progress. So I decided I would see if I could end up 100 lbs less that my 267 by my boys' 1st birthday. Well, I made it pretty close...only 2 lbs shy of my goal. And you know the rest of the story. Sadly, I lost my focus, & stopped receiving the wonderful benefits of breastfeeding & now I've got this weight to lose all over again!
It's like my body is a broken record of yo-yo-ing weights. I've always got to be at or above 200 lbs. I know, sorry for the pity party. But it does feel nice to write this all down. So, yesterday I started recording my calories & being honest with myself about what I'm consuming. I previously made some progress on my weight this summer, so I know what it takes, I've just got to be willing to say NO to the foods I love & stop this stress/emotional eating!!! Now is the TIME!!!
View Diet Calendar, 06 December 2012:
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1888 kcal
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Fat: 77.09g | Prot: 89.75g | Carbs: 223.26g.
Breakfast: creamy peanut butter, great value grape jelly, great value wheat bread. Lunch: kraft sliced cheese, oscar meyer turkey, great value wheat bread. Dinner: cream of chicken soup, whole wheat spaghetti, cream cheese, velveeta, mixed vegetables, canned tyson chicken. Snacks/Other: string cheese, daisy low fat sour cream, great value mild chunky, baked potato, butter, green beans, green giant broccoli, cauliflower, carrots & cheese sauce. more...
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2599 kcal
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Exercise:
Desk Work - 4 hours, Walking (moderate) - 5/kph - 23 minutes, Running (jogging) - 8/kph - 8 minutes, Resting - 11 hours and 29 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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