Urgh I'm so frustrated today... First off, my boyfriend dropped me off at my dorm at 2 something in the morning, when i was half asleep, and i left my phone at his house. Now his family is going to be driven nuts by it... lovely. To top that, my menstrual cycle is being ridiculous - so apparently, I'm disabled for the day. If try to move or attempt to do any kind of exercise, I'm royally screwed. This sucks... lol. That's enough whining for the day. I'm super happy about being at 266.8lbs... I know it's going to go down because of my bloating!! Can't wait to see the next number! *happy dance* What's really awesome is that now my boyfriend is getting into getting fit. He only has 10 lbs to lose and he wants to tone up a bit so, he'll get there in no time. I told him about my progress and he stared at me up and down and said "I see a difference... like a healthy glow you have lately." I was so happy to hear that :D!! I sometimes feel guilty for being so overweight - he's never EVER complained about it, or mentioned it... in fact he said he loves my body but deep down I don't think he would prefer me to be overweight like this. Whenever we go out to eat or If i meet another member of his family I feel embarrassed for the both of us because of my weight, and I'm really sick of it... But that's why I'm here and taking care of myself! This is for me, my health, my comfort, and no one else's.
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