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Has anyone seen my self control? My willpower, maybe? I think I need to find a little devil to put on my shoulder. It would be so much easier if there was someone there telling me exactly where that Turtle Ice Cream would go if I ate it! I keep hearing that its OK to have a "cheat" day. That allowing your body some of the things it craves, in moderation of course, is healthy. Well I don't think that rule was made for me in mind. I can't just eat a moderate portion of anything to save my life! :)
It amazes me how quickly motivation can disappear! How can we so quickly throw in the towel and continue on the path of despair? Aren't we worth the fight to keep going? Doesn't our life matter enough to achieve those goals we have put in place for ourselves? The problem is, the battle is with ourselves. How can you deny yourself something that makes you happy? It's easy to dismiss "Oh one cookie won't hurt!" But a lifetime of those excuses is just another stretch mark to remind us of our weaknesses. Like adding another notch to that favorite belt that doesn't fit. I must find a way to eliminate these things from my life. I must edit my food dictionary, starting with the C section, since that calls to my desires the most. Cookie...Cake...Candy. They must be eliminated!!!!! Deleted.
I have picked up a few extra shifts at work, thinking that if I kept busy the cravings wouldn't seem as intense. The problem: I work at a grocery store!! Maybe working more is not the wisest choice.
Well it's a daily battle, not one that is meant to be won in a day. Everyday I will be a little stronger, because I WILL do this, I CAN resist and I AM worth it!!
Please let me know if you happen to see my motivation or self control!
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